since december 28th, 2010, i'm under cum control. In fact its much cum denial. The goal that has been assigned to me is to come from one jizz a day to one jizz a week for now. Of course, better if i could go directly to one week without any ejaculation.
the other assignment i received is to eat my load.
so how did i ended up here ? and how is it as of today ?
In a previous post i already said that i was under a no sex except wanking time of my life for the last pas 2 years minimum. It ended up few days ago when i came back to europe for a holiday trip back to my home country. I fucked a good bottom, and that was great. yay. At that point i was back to my former love of top-ing bottoms. I hadnt all the fucks i wanted, also because i had several things to do and friends to see, but the one i had with a slut bottom was a great time. Probably because of this "back to top" thing that was on its way for the last several weeks, i stopped shavin my body hair except nipples and balls.
So why i'm back here on my dark side bottom blog ?
Well, there's irony in life... Few days after that i got back in touch with a nasty top i chatted with now and then in the past. He is a young dom top, but has a wild imagination, is very demanding and hard to satisfy. He is a tough master and is expectations are high. I think i have a true fascination for him, even if i never mat him yet, and cant explain why. I had several abuse from him in the past (cbt, shavin, hole workout) and i'm always wet when i'm exchanging with him. Each time i feel like a pup with him and that my place is to crawl, be gagged, shaven, hole fucked or whatever. I wish i could meet/serve him better, but i have my limitations.
So as you understood, he is a master i have an intriguing crush on...
What makes him more hotter is i think he love big cock slaves, especially if they are former top. I think he loves the satisfaction of breaking a top and bringing him to a full hole bottom. I must admit i love the idea to be trained that way. He told me he has a regular bottom, and after a year of training cant get hard for butts but only for pain, submission and bottoming.
After a few message exchanged, he reminded me that in his opinion, as a cunt (he calls me that way or bitch) i should eat my cum. His slave is only allowed once a week, cum on the floor and lick everything.
As i'm sharing, in the end of my holidays, a hotel room, i had no chance to wank and unload my cum one night. I notified the Master of that and asked what was more important : trash my cum in my mouth or hold it in my balls. And ended up with my second assignment : holding cum is more important, minimum a week. If cumming : eating it.
after one day and two night without my usual daily jizz i'm quite horny with aching balls.
yesterday evening i ended up showering and soaping my asshole to massage it for some minutes. It felt so good and relieved a little the pressure. I think i'll do that back today...
My balls are now in an excruciating pain, specially when i walk and sit. It's like having someone grabbing them and squeeze all day. They are loaded, heavy, hard and VERY sensitive. Pain and discomfort extends to lower belly and inside asshole.
I must say though i was willing to comply i was a bit afraid of this pain and franticly search online about cum control and denial at night. It seems the "blueball" feeling is normal at the beginning of a cum denial cycle (some men seem to have whistanded 30 days or more !! i'm fuckin impressed but relieved)
So there i am now. Horny. Often hard as hell. Painful golf balls.
I hope the pain will lower in the next days but as i tend to be hard more often, i'm not sure about that.
I'm thinking of a chastity device now... and i'm wondering how it would be if i was fucked hard in this condition now...
